These are the songs that I listened to on repeat in the ICU. I cranked these truths high, sometimes playing them for the nursing staff so Matt and I could listen together during those quieter NG tube visit (it was really hard to talk) days.
These particular songs brought tears to my eyes as I let their truths sink in.
I can’t tell you how many times I listened to this song on repeat and just let the truths of God’s Word soak in. Sometimes it felt really dark and I wondered when I would make forward progress steps, so I would just repeat the chorus: “You are my revival. Jesus on You, I’ll wait. I’ll lean on Your promise. You will renew my strength.” I repeated it again and again in my head when I couldn’t even speak that truth around the NG tube. I repeated it when the hours seemed to stand still and even move backward. And my heart cried it out with Lauren Daigle with tears streaming. “You ARE my revival! Jesus on You, I’ll wait!!! I’ll lean on Your promise! You WILL renew my strength!” And sure enough, I found my rest in His Everlasting Name.
He took all that was wrong and made it right. Sometimes I had to repeat that truth in my head when things weren’t going that great. I will stand my ground where Hope can be found!
Though I must confess that my favorite time to hear these songs, bringing tears to my eyes, was their playing in the car ride home from the hospital on January 4th. There was no more beautiful sound than hearing my children sing along to the truths God had breathed so deeply into my heart throughout the previous 11 days.
So if you happen to see Lauren Daigle ;), tell her thanks for being used of God to encourage me through my long hours in the ICU.
And since I was kind of stuck there for a while in the ICU/hospital, I used my time to pray this over our people group and two that God has laid on my heart for months that I am desperately praying come back to the Lord.
I’m still crying out to those dry bones and dead hearts to come alive in the Name of Jesus Christ, whether I’m in Mozambique, in the US, or even in the ICU in South Africa. I will not stop calling out for the Holy Spirit to draw these precious souls out of the ashes into Life in Jesus Christ. Let us see an army rise in the beautiful name of Jesus!!!
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