Last night our oldest began to get teary-eyed when I announced bedtime was nearing. He’s still getting into the swing here, you know, since he was only placed here two days ago. Oh wait… did I forget to mention that?<\/p>\n
Oh yeah, two days ago we got a phone call a little after 1p and added two new members to our family by 7p. Yep, 6 hours that I’ll never forget. The day had felt so normal. And when I was given the info over the phone I just knew “yes” was the only answer. It was our step of obedience that we’d been praying about for 1 year and seven months from that first heart-pricking. And in one afternoon we met them… the boys that have made us “never the same” and “never wanting to go back” all in one.<\/p>\n
He’d cried himself to sleep the first two nights, missing his Mom. Rightfully so. I just agreed with him. It is not fair. I wish I could tell him when she’d come for him. I wish I knew if she’d ever come for him. I ran my fingers through his hair. Nits don’t hold water to love. He’s worth the risk.<\/p>\n
Then last night came. And the story emerged. Too much seen. Violence. An emergency phone call. Fear.<\/p>\n
I wish I could take it away from him. I wish I could blot out those images that haunt him… I wish I could replace them with trips to the park and Saturday morning cartoons.<\/p>\n
Old words drew more tears to his eyes. His bottom lip quivered as he tried to regain self-control, failing. He confided the source of his nightmares… his anxiety about sleeping. His insecurity in what he should really believe.<\/p>\n
I asked him if he felt safe here. He answered quickly with assurance. I wondered if that assurance would hold water right after a nightmare.<\/p>\n
We prayed. And I stroked his hair more.<\/p>\n
I just wish I could take it all away for him.<\/p>\n
But I can’t.<\/p>\n
But I know who has sheltered him. Who has guarded as much innocence as can be left after all he’s seen. I know who has stood in the gap, shielding him from so much so that he can lose himself in a bad joke, run in reckless abandonment through the house, and blast helicopters with laser beams right before they catapult to the living room carpet.<\/p>\n
And all I can do is say thank you. Thank you, Lord, on his behalf.<\/p>\n
And then I can just lead him to Your feet, in prayer.<\/p>\n
…<\/p>\n
Prayer for a peace beyond our understanding.<\/p>\n
– Love that boy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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