What do you do when you find out the county lied about the placement case you accepted?<\/p>\n
You feel shocked.<\/p>\n
You repeat the new information that changes the odds of working toward adoption in an unfavorable way.<\/p>\n
You feel frustrated that your clearly stated desires were blatantly ignored.<\/p>\n
You call your out-of-town sister in a mixture of confusion, frustration and shock.<\/p>\n
You feel betrayed, stabbed in the back and stuck in a situation that either you or the children will pay for, not the ones that misrepresented the case.<\/p>\n
You ask the baby, “what is going to happen to you?” in disbelief and uncertainly while bouncing him.<\/p>\n
You put on a movie for the older kids because you’re emotionally spent.<\/p>\n
You go for a walk when your husband gets home so you can try to clear your head and come to terms with the new conditions.<\/p>\n
You call your husband on the walk so he can talk to you while making dinner because some things should not be shared with children.<\/p>\n
You cry until your baby looks up at you in the front carrier with bewilderment.<\/p>\n
You leave your mom a message since she’s one of your best friends and is unavailable.<\/p>\n
And you just walk in the quiet, cold, asking God, “what now?”<\/p>\n
<\/p>\n
Then you come home in time for dinner.<\/p>\n
Do bath night assembly lines as usual.<\/p>\n
And hug your boys goodnight.<\/p>\n
Because even when you’ve been disrespected, two little people are worth more than shifting stability and the very ugliness of a case you would not choose to accept, had you been told the truth.<\/p>\n
So who knows what tomorrow holds for all of us in this equation.<\/p>\n
But I do know this… I can’t do this.<\/p>\n
But Christ can.<\/p>\n
And will.<\/p>\n
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