I’m not even sure where to start these swirling thoughts. It’s a lot to still take in.<\/p>\n
I got a phone call a few months ago and we all celebrated quietly. We didn’t want to the news to slip out, but we were joyful at the life conceived after a hard run.<\/p>\n
My dear sister in law had already lost three, two in a row and the most recent’s surgery still fresh on our minds. And then the news came. And we rejoiced quietly, so as not to announce anything before passing that first trimester window.<\/p>\n
Things were trucking along, with understandable conversations of laying anxiety at Christ’s feet. For those of you whom have ever miscarried, you know that passing the last miscarriage date feels more secure… it’s like a deep breath can happen more freely.<\/p>\n
And with the close of the first trimester, we were excited to see our prayers being answered favorably. Thanks be to the Giver of life who knits our very fragile selves together in the dark, quiet comforts of our Moms.<\/p>\n
Then all at once she felt something was wrong. She told me of the multiple attempts from nurses and even the doctor to find little one’s heartbeat. I remembered that drop in the pit of my stomach when the same thing happened to me. She knew the baby was gone.<\/p>\n
With another surgery scheduled, the healing phase begins again. Only this time with the hurt of having more children in heaven than here. We’re left with the ‘why’s to lay at His feet. And why four? The hurts. And the questions that we fight to keep from eating away at our sanity. Faith\u00a0 is not shaken, but hurt is inevitable. Loss. The grief season.<\/p>\n
So what are you supposed to do when the answer is ‘no’?<\/p>\n
Again.<\/p>\n
You hug each other
and hold each other
you come over to distract
and bring dinner
You pass off the baby when she needs snuggle therapy
And keep the baby quiet when she needs to forget
You listen
and listen
and listen some more<\/p>\n
You hurt with her hurts
And cry with her crying
And you laugh with her laughs
because life still has joy
You go for walks
and drives
and celebrate what He has given her
with an arm around her at what has been taken away<\/p>\n
And you both stand in the hope of Christ
a Hope that heals the soul<\/p>\n
a Hope that breathes peace into the mind
and calm into the depths of the pain<\/p>\n
a Hope that offers Life
when death seems to surround us<\/p>\n
He is that Hope
and that Perfect friend<\/p>\n
And so you just pray Him over her<\/p>\n
because He is everything she could ever need…<\/p>\n
… to heal.<\/p>\n
… and to thrive through this storm.<\/p>\n
– Love her so.<\/p>\n
– to God be the glory. Forever. And Ever.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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