Sometimes you just need to cry.
Palm on your forehead,
Face buried in your blanket,
Laying alone in your bed.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to stare off.
Disappointment not taking on words,
Fuzzing out of reality,
The bassinet still empty.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to lay quietly.
Drowning out the unwanted commentary,
“Helpful” others due date predictions,
Filtering out prying stares.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to close your eyes.
That blurry burning in your eyelids,
Headache incurable,
Months of tension in your lower back and shoulders.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need a moment.
Replaying hospital discharge words,
Medical assistant’s “common” classification rolling so easily from her tongue,
Lip quivering and that lump welling in the back of your throat. <\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to stop counting.
Fake progress’ painful contractions surmounting nothing,
Distance allowing the illusion of control,
Ripping up the latest record sheet.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need the silence.
Just alone without expectation,
Letting down the game face,
Months of others’ Hallmark hope sayings falling from your mind.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to not know what you need.
Heart-ripping frustration rolling from your cheeks,
Not even understanding yourself,
Welcoming the isolation of pregnancy in the moment.<\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to hurt.
Months of sleeplessness and silent symptoms dealt with alone,
Patience statements from well-rested, comfortable others,\u00a0
Endless pain welling over the brim. <\/p>\n
Sometimes you just need to cry.
Outpouring of honesty to a responseless audience,
Frozen in space and time,
A blender of misunderstood and brushed off. <\/p>\n
Sometimes…<\/p>\n
Then the sometimes ends,<\/p>\n
And you go back to your normal,<\/p>\n
Filing the sometimes in honesty and growing into a newness.<\/p>\n
… A newness born from the sometimes.\u00a0 <\/p>\n
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